Day 20 of 61 Blog Challenge

Day 20: A difficult time in your life

I would have to say that this is probably one of the hardest posts. I have had a few difficult times in my life, and I'm not talking about like someone breaking my heart, or losing a pet (granted yes that is a hard/difficult time especially if the animal is a big part of your family), etc.

I don't know if I can just sit here and focus on just one difficult time. I spent 21 years of my life (age 4-25) with some kind of abuse (sexual, verbal, physical, emotional, mental). I was abused by my neighbor/babysitters son (who is/was in jail for abusing other girls), by my female cousin (no not all sexual abusers are males), by my own father, and by my ex-boyfriend. It wasn't until I got with my husband that all the abuse finally stopped. Another difficult time was when I did lose my dad. Yes, he spent years and years abusing me, but in 2004 he was in a serious car accident. Yes I could have just said "screw it, I don't care" but I still went to sit by his bedside. He saw what it is that he did wrong and we attempted to work on our relationship, but then he was taken from me to soon. He passed away on September 17th, 2005. The last difficult time in my life was when I got necrotizing fasciitis and was close to loosing my life. My children were so young at the time and my daughter was just a newborn. I was rushed into emergency surgery on Christmas morning 2012, so Christmas sure does have a whole new meaning for us. I deal with the reminder of that infection every day as I have a scar across my abdomen from it. I lost a 30x15x10 cm area of my abdomen, this all happened from a tubal ligation surgery!

So as you can tell, it's hard for me to choose just one difficult time in my life and talk about it.